Blog Intro

This is where I will be sharing thoughts and journaling about my life and some of the struggles we work through here in the after ...life without my husband. On occasion I may repost some old blogs from the before ...life with him. I don't blog often but when I do, it is always raw and uncut. Writing is my release. Both for grief and for joy. Whether it's my stories, my poetry, my journaling, my social media or my blog, all my writings are written in the moment and with all my thoughts and feelings entangled in a web that intricately holds together who I am in all the parts of me. It's not always easy to let others in but it is always freeing once I do so. I have learned to just let go and let my fingers speak for me through my pen or keyboard. They've always been much more eloquent than my mouth anyways. Because it's my fingers speaking, though, it's not always grammatically correct but I try to leave it as much as possible so as to not change the tone or heart in the words. I apologize in advance if that drives you crazy. It drives me crazy too but experience has taught me that when my brain tries to edit my hands, meaning gets lost. So if you want to read my words, you may have to set your brain aside and read only with your heart. That's the way my writings are meant to be read anyways. Either way, I hope that anyone who reads anything I write will be able to come away with something that helps them through their own journey or growth. I pray that the Lord will use me to speak His words through mine.

My aim is to show people that they are not alone in their struggles, in their challenges, in their choices...in anything. There is One who will be right beside you through it all. He has been beside me even in the moments I have ignored His presence and even when I have silently turned my head from Him. He doesn't leave me. He waits. I don't deserve for anyone to wait for me, least of all the Creator of all the universe, the Savior and Redeemer of all the world! I get irritated when my children wait 3 more seconds to come when I call them and yet the King of Kings just waits for me. He calls me and when my pitiful self sits around ignoring His call, He waits, encouraging me to come, no shame, no guilt, just come to Him. Sometimes I feel like I waited too long so now I need to come with some sort of apology gift and when I can't find something worthy of Him (which obviously nothing is), then I feel like I can't come back yet until I do and it just causes more distance and time away. Side note: I know that's not true so as you're reading this "blessing my heart", just know that I do know, but my brain and my heart are not very good friends so sometimes it really doesn't matter what I know or don't know. It only matters what I feel.

Anyways, I want to be here for anyone else who may at times feel the same or maybe not even this but struggle in other areas. Maybe we can be there for each other if only virtually. That's why God made us to be social creatures, after all. He knows I can't have it together and neither can you, and even though He is always right there waiting for us so HE can pull it together FOR us, sometimes we need each other to push and shove each other towards Him when our heads are too stubborn to listen for Him.

Okay, well, welcome to my site and my blog of thoughts. I would love to hear from anyone who needs someone to hear from them so feel free to comment or message me at info@destinyciera.com if you just need to say something but don't know who to say it to. I would love to listen!